Sad

I'm never am going to hear from her again, I don't know why I write on this stupid blog. I made a mistake and it's over, there are no more second chances. She will never ever believe me or talk to me again..

Lately...

A lot has happened lately and a lot of it has really perplexed me. Something new happens everyday and it is only messing with my mind. I am disappointed with who I have become. I don't feel the same at all.

Never Forget You - Lupe Fiasco

I’ll never forget you

I’ll never let you go

I’ll never forget you

I’ll always remember, I hope you know

Depression

It hits hard and just eats you inside. I miss my old self, I miss Eli a lot. I don't know who I even am anymore. I feel so lost. Every thing I look at reminds me of her. Everything I do or say. I can't escape what once was. It stays with you forever in memories. Moving on from this relationship is the hardest thing I've ever encountered in my life. I'm not ready to let go. I just need to find myself, even if it takes my whole life.

So Lost

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse

Break

This break has helped me realize that there's only one person that can make life better and can make me happy, but that person will never talk to me, it's the worst feeling ever.